Sorry guys, been extremely busy. I'm on call this month yuck. Blah for RL but yay for some ficcing! Some ooc, and durama X-D WHEEEEE!!! hahehehe. But, hope you enjoy the chapter X-)

Title: Underneath – Part 26
Author: Lilang Luha
Rating: T
Genre: romance, shonen-ai, comedy, fluff, drama, eventual AU? eventual smut?
Pairing: Roy x Ed, others
Author Notes: Don’t own FMA. Blah, blah, blah. See the Prologue.
Previous Chapters: My LJ Memories Page
Status: Continuing
Spoilers: None
Summary: Ed in schoolgirl outfit. Love triangle, or octagon. Amestrian school. Drama and Quirk. Yadda yadda…

( Part26!! )

Today was a very bad day. I won't cover it in sugar and candy. And a lot of shit happened. I dont want to reiterrate anymore. Im sick and tired of this fucktard shit of a job.

SHit to a point that i had to get up from my cube, walk to the bathroom, shut myself off, and cried for 15 mts. And ppl that know me personally know for sure that Lilang Luha does not cry. She just doesn't. So I cried and called my fiance in the bathroom and vented. I hated to do that and I hated being sobby gut-shittless like a goddamned schoolgirl, but I did it.

The worst part is I let these asshats get me this down. And I was mad at myself for that too.

My former coworker's been telling me to turn in my notice now. and that what am i waiting for... i dont know. i set a date and i wanted to stick to it. i dunno. i need to calm down and be distracted. i need to let go. i cant believe this job ended up like this. It didnt used to be this way honest.

haaaaahh.... feeling listless. everything that happens at work manages to piss me off somehow. as much as I love my coworkers, I'm just biding my time now. 4 wks left. 4 fucking weeks!!

A/N: Part 25! If you have issues getting to my LJ Memories page, please let me know. Sometimes FFNet wont show the links/special chars etc. Thanks much and I hope you enjoy!


Title: Underneath – Part 25: “Single Rose”
Author: Lilang Luha
Rating: T
Genre: romance, shonen-ai, comedy, fluff, drama, eventual AU? eventual smut?
Pairing: Roy x Ed, others
Author Notes: Don’t own FMA. Blah, blah, blah. See the Prologue.
Previous Chapters: My LJ Memories Page
Status: Continuing
Spoilers: None
Summary: Ed in schoolgirl outfit. Love triangle, or octagon. Amestrian school. Drama and Quirk. Yadda yadda…

( Part25!! )

Title: Underneath – Part 24: “Daisy Dukes”
Author: Lilang Luha
Rating: T
Genre: romance, shonen-ai, comedy, fluff, drama, eventual AU? eventual smut?
Pairing: Roy x Ed, others
Author Notes: Don’t own FMA. Blah, blah, blah. See the Prologue.
Previous Chapters: My LJ Memories Page
Status: Continuing
Spoilers: None
Summary: Ed in schoolgirl outfit. Love triangle, or octagon. Amestrian school. Drama and Quirk. Yadda yadda…


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Feeling a little like ooc.. ah well i hope ppl enjoy this as much as i enjoyed writing :-)

Title: Underneath – Part 23: "Emily's Secret”
Author: Lilang Luha
Rating: NC 17
Genre: romance, shonen-ai, comedy, fluff, drama, eventual AU? eventual smut?
Pairing: Roy x Ed, others
Author Notes: Don’t own FMA. Blah, blah, blah. See the Prologue.
xposted in: not sure yet
Beta’s: sorry, not any now :-p
Status: Continuing
Spoilers: None
Summary: Ed in schoolgirl outfit. Love triangle, or octagon. Amestrian school. Drama and Quirk. Yadda yadda…

I love my LJ icon!! Thnx to mychemical_lust

so i really want to write fanfics again but... i guess its the annoying poopy otakus that really are keeping me from it. i started catching up on my comments from previous fanfics and... i really shouldnt have since there are a lot of fun anime fans fanfic fans out there.

its a littel difficult. talking to ppl who are not mature i guess. ah well.

also my desire to finish underneath has waned. why? bc there are some pretty poopy FMA otakus out there. (gad ppl, its just a fanfic) and where the hell are the anime/fanfic fans who are mature enough to talk to and have fun with? ugh

i really want to write again. I really want to write a yamagoku fanfic yum.

i think i have found my new anime couple. its been a while since i got this urge to write a yaoi fanfic (oh holy lord. she's at it again haha). i dont know if any of it will come to fruitition bc of lack of time due to real life, but ah well. i can always dream it.

i been watching this anime called katekyo hitman reborn. and yes, i didnt like it at first, and then i realized i couldnt stop watching bc i loved the characters so much. oh and why oh why can't i stop thinking of yamamoto x gokudera? its just hot.

first of all, i have to describe work as it is now:

1. New policy of how we clock in our time in certain buckets. They said we are only allowed 19% of time in "Admin Time." Mind, its not a big deal except admin time INCLUDES FUCKING PAID TIME OFF. If the company wants us to NOT take our paid time off, then why cant they just come the fuck out and say it.

2. IT Architecture reviews are a new process they are starting this quarter. What does this all mean? it means they are reviewing how all the systems talk to each other.

Now what is so bad about all this besides screwing our paid time off? Well... if they are asking us to put our time in more specified buckets and that they are reviewing each system's functionality, my obvious conclusion is: cuts! Why? Because they are grabbing numbers on who does what (with the time tracking) and which systems can be consolidated (IT Review). I have a funny/bad feeling about this. i am trying to keep positive... if these are steps to take numbers as reason to cut ppl, it will take at least a quarter of data gathering before management can do anything about it. With my current plans, it may not affect me at all.

second news:

My former coworker who was forced to quit the company has had several interviews in the past week. One interview is for (****) consulting. He told me to try for them bc they are looking for entry level programmers that they are willing to train. its in a piece of technology that I have been thinking of going into and it is experience that will make me quite marketable after I am done. he said they are looking for conractors for a 3 yr project, which means guaranteed job for 3 yrs.

problem? its here in town and my 'outside life' has its own plans too.

1. my fiance is graduating vet school soon and he does not plan on staying here in town. at some point, we'd, uh, like to get married and be together. we do not know if he will be here or not, but the % likelihood is that it wont be here. too many companies and business is moving out of the midwest... i can find something easy here, but my fiance probably will not...

2. My 2 yrs at H is coming up and it will end just in time for the other job to start... but i do not want to commit to 3 more yrs of being here and then just leave after a few months. I dont want to look like a leap frog on my resume...

3. School. Hell yeahs school. Grad school is harder than undergrad, duh. While i can work while going to school at night, my current capacity for keeping grades up is one class per trimester... if i take this next job, i'll be in school way long and i dont want to be in school way long. Also, the *** job does not guarantee no Overtime. How do I know they will allow me time with class?

4. My plan was to end my prison term here at work by end of 2009 and plow fulltime through my classes during 2010 and get a summer internship out of state summer 2010... that would get delayed like 3-4 yrs.

so, im in a bit of a dilemma... I know I may be freaking out more than i should, but the job *** is such a great opportunity. Thing is, opporutnities come all the time... and its not like i even applied for this job. I just know if I go through my friend, its a guarantee. this tech is very hard to find ppl going into.

I need to sleep over it but i have a feeling that even if i sleep over it it will still be a ???. Am I being an idiot?

wow my weekend was booked to the max. Had fiance's parents over, my bro just moved back from memphis, and my sis came up from NC. had a good time though :0)

THinking of what to specialize in for my MSCS. I am thinking one of two things:

1. Systems Testing
2. Web Development


Option 1 is great bc its stable, lots of $$, easy job, but I'm not uber passionate about it. it sok and i know i am capable of doing it, but it isnt all that creative.

Option 2 is great bc i like it and it strokes my artistic side and UI has been something i truly like, but it truly isnt as stable, $$, or easy to find a job..

So yeah a coworker has been helping me out on this but we shall see. he truly recommends going out there and networking and asking around. we shall see.

I read the manga at the store a while back. hopefully the anime is just as good ;) Though yummy boyz doesnt hurt.

I already put this up on facebook yesterday, but i must share with my LJ peeps:

I want this game like bad



slotted/planned release for US is fall 09. We'll see if its any good.

Not sure how I did but i'm just glad it's done. I even took 1/2 day off for it.... oh well.

I really need a vacation. Like a real one where I don't have to study or work or do anything for the house. Like a bed and breakfast around OH would be fun.

I GOT MY LAB 4 DONNNNNNEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FIGURED IT OUT WOOOOOOO!!! After 2 wks of toiling and growing white hair on my head. WOOOOO!!!!

.... on to the next lab...

so i totally need to go shopping (but dunno when i will have time). Why?

1. my bro's bday passed (it was 3/6) and i didnt get him anything. He's here in town this week but am thinking i have no clue for his present.

2. my sister's bday is on the 3/26. again, no clue what to get. she's way busy with her dissertation so she isnt as easy to reach until she graduates.

3. don_quexada's white coating is coming up at the first week of april. its a big deal so of course, no clue what to get

4. my sister's graduation is coming up. it's not just any graduation, but she is getting robed for her PhD... so yeah. vry special occasion which requries special gift that i dunno what to get.

hm what else? its happy happy exciting things ahead. currently working on a lab for class, whichi s going and going.

not much else. except anyone who has not seen the new Dr. Strange animated movie ought to see it. It is SO F*CKING AWESHOMMMM!! uh yeah. it really doesnt focus on the "action scenes" per se. there really is a focus on the character development and the "philosophical journey" of overcoming obstacles. sounds warm and fuzzy but its actually pretty dark.

:-DDDDDDDDDDDDDDdd

http://www.fire-emblem.com/shadowdragon/